In my experience, its only bad to mix Bipolar Disorder with Social Media at two times: manic times and depressive times…ok make that three times, the actual “crash” itself is pretty horrendous.
I thought about this today as I realized that I have not felt as compelled lately to post and share on Facebook as I have been over the past few months. I am still recovering from an epic crash, but I’m back to my job, eating, sleeping, and for the most part feeling like a normal human again. I realized that when I crashed (which was triggered by the breakup of me and my boyfriend, again, yes again) I had been posting on Facebook like a mad woman. Sharing everything I liked, liking everything I saw, and status updating about how sad I felt, or how tired I was every two hours… It’s really gross to look back on. Not only were these posts quite frequent, but some of them were negative or even just plain scary. I had more than three people ask me what was going on with me because they ‘had been reading some of my posts and were worried.’
On the flip side I had been in a wonderful hypomanic state from March to June and I was also posting quite frequently, only this was more along the lines of checking in every place I went (every single place, even places no one cares about) as well as tagging all of the people I was with and of course including some type of photographic evidence that I was indeed there with said people, at said place. Another thing I noticed was how much I shared the more political or controversial news pieces, how frequently I voiced my opinion about a topic, and how willing I was to argue to the death about it – all on social media.
I think there are some people who just post on Facebook a lot. And that’s ok. I also know plenty of people who are barely ever on it, and those who view it several times a day but never post. Where is the line? Well that’s up to you, but mixing it with mental illness has been really hard for me.
For me there is a certain fear that if ‘its’ happening it will be on Facebook. And if I’m not on Facebook to see ‘it’ happen then I will miss out on ‘it.’
This is very dangerous when you are spiraling into a deep depression because you find any reason or any comment to find even more negativity and feed yourself more anxiety. And at some point, you start feeling suicidal and you want to reach out and ask for help, but you can’t just very well post “help I’m suicidal” in your status update.
It’s dangerous for our mania or hypomania as well because we post things, and we crack jokes, and we get likes and other jokes back. We are tagging people and going to so many places appearing to be the ‘it’ that is going on, we are SO great! Life is SO amazing, and we just wanna keep talking about it on Facebook!
I run a business and plan my daily social media posts out a week in advance. I see the value in shares and likes and comments and updates. I understand that this is the way the world is moving, and I stay on social media.
I think social media etiquette needs to be addressed for many people, but I tend to turn to it even though I know I shouldn’t. All I know is that I have found one more tool for measuring success and recovery, one more way of identifying ‘red flags’ of my bipolar. This new tool is evaluating my use of social media, maybe it can help me stop a manic episode or maybe it can help me from getting so depressed.
-M